HOW TO GRADUATE FEELING THAT I MATTER
Two events shaped me:
The first one is that, for the most part, my father has not been a part of my life. Because of this I have continuously tried to find validation from others and from myself.
The second one is that I spent a long time in the educational system, I was kicked out of two different schools and I have always felt that I do not have individual choice.
I am still attempting to graduate from a higher education institution because this is the only way I know how to validate myself. To find my merit I need this stamp of approval, a diploma, to feel like I matter.
This room is my room and I have worked here for almost two months writing notes for at least 2 hours every day. Each note is a part of what I need as an individual to validate myself.
I invited people into my room to share my personal story and my vulnerability. This led me to discover that I am not the only one looking for this validation inside the institution of school.
Because of these conversations, I concluded that I cannot receive validation from the institution of school: I am the only one that can validate myself and make me feel that I matter.
Graduation Project, Rotterdam